"...do you belong to me, or do I belong to you?"
The Sanctus Real lyrics run through my head every day and as I am in a constant progress of relying less on my heart and emotions and more on my faith my meta-cognative rambles help in the process-I hope.
Quote of the Moment
"All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen."
Ah, competition. Friendly's is trying to one up the KFC Double-Down in a quite a valiant effort-with their Grilled Cheese Burgermelt. Check out the linked article...the fat grams on this bad boy are staggering.
I think I am fatter just from reading the article and this picture is about as close to this sandwich as I am going to get. Yikes!
Addison informed me that she was happy to pee and poop like a big girl now AND that I was her best friend because we go on imaginary adventures together-today we drove a helicopter through the house and last night we jumped into a book to get a bottle of perfume.
It smelled beautiful.
I want to cry (sometimes I do, I never knew saying good bye to diapers was that big a deal) because this is all going by too fast, I still visit the vivid memory of holding her, just me and my girl, in my hospital room after everyone went home her first night alive. It was just the two of us and I still can't believe what I have been chosen to do.
She is growing into such an amazing and compassionate little girl. So smart and beautiful...very aware of others and the big world around her. She is a nurturer for sure.
Don't get me started on Baylor Jane...she is babbling like a crazy person and every few words she clearly states "Good Girl", "hello" or "hot dog". I thought she was going to be our quite and reflective one. Fat chance...she is more of a dare devil than Addison and she learns too much from her...I'm not talking the alphabet ; manipulation, climbing skills and how to drive us overall nutty.
This was just a weekend that once again reminds me that I am taking part in a miracle raising these two little women and I am just so honored to be doing this with my husband. We aren't the worlds most perfect parents, but I know I am having a blast on this adventure.
I am really having a rough time right now being away from my girls. Financial issues have forced me to pick up a lot of extra jobs over the last few months and I have spent quite a few hours during the week away from home on top of my regular job. I am doing what needs to be done to keep this family a float but it is really getting to me.
I am working all summer and I am already sort of at my breaking point.
I have always dreamed of staying at home and raising our children. I was very blessed to be home 12 weeks when Addison was born and 5 months with Baylor. I just desperately want to be with them all of the time.
I have always said that the summers is when I will get to be an at-home mom, but I have still taught summer school for the last three summers. This summer I am picking up even more hours than the last two and I just feel a little bummed by it.
So, if I magically had a million dollars dropped in my lap I wouldn't go on an amazing vacation or go all crazy spending it on outlandish things. I would simply get caught up on the mess that unemployment brings and then stay at home giving my babies they extra love and attention I really wish I could afford to give them.